These past 5 weeks have not been easy staying in hiding, but I really wanted to wait until I heard the heartbeat to tell anyone. It amazes me that when my Mom had me she never had an ultrasound, not one. Thank God for new technology because I think I would literally be a nervous wreck for 9 straight months if I didn't get that confirmation in front of my face. I have really been trying to put all of this in God's hands. I know that no matter how much I worry this is his creation he planned long ago that frankly I have no control over. I came across a verse yesterday and I think God put it in my face just in time to test me! It was about fear and that God's love drives out fear (1 John 4:18). Well sure enough our first ultrasound was scheduled on a day that it snowed. We cut it close planning to have some friends over the day after the ultrasound and tell them we are pregnant. Well therefore, a snowed out ultrasound + the announcement the next day = FEAR! Yes, we showed up at 7:30 a.m. with no doctor in sight. Chris was half a sleep due to his night shift and I was fighting back tears (hormones or the early hour?) We could not get in touch with anyone at the office so I took a deep breath and decided I was going to have to just trust that everything inside my tummy was ok and it was still ok to tell friends. I headed to work trying to start the day again and my phone rang... it was an angel of a nurse rescheduling my appt. for later in the day!! And again I cried (these hormones I tell ya! haha!) Poor Chris went and got a few hours sleep and then we headed back to try this once again. Well I must say it was worth the wait!! Our little booger checked out perfect!!!! The doctor said everything was measuring perfect in size and right on time. She showed us the little heartbeat and then all of a sudden it sounded like a loud drum beating so fast... it was our babies heartbeat:) I'm not quite sure if my heart or the baby's heart was beating faster, but it was amazing!!
I truly cannot express how blessed we feel! Now more than ever I see how amazing He is. We are so excited and cannot thank God enough! We have a long journey ahead and hope you all will continue to pray for us and the little booger! :) August 28th is the day.
*9 Week Ultrasound*